the great collapse.

I'm just scared that everything collapsing is God's will. I think I lack faith. I know God wants the best for me. But what if His best is the one thing I'm dreading?

let go. i cant. you need to. i know. im here. im scared. let go.

Great Park = Great fun

So I know I haven't written in a while. But I just wanted to put an entry in about when I went to the Great Park! It was pretty fun and random. We did practically everything there. We as in Lydia Kim, Joyce Ang and I. We played chess. Took a mini dance lesson. Danced the night away. Until our turn came for the Great Balloon. We went up 400ft. (i think?) The man in control of the balloon was dressed like a captain. I thought about how cool it would be to be captain of an airship. Too bad those are only anime. I wondered what would happen if the balloon carried me away and somehow my worries would be left behind. But all that happened was the balloon went back down. We were tired by that time so we just watched some other people dance. It was cute because it was families and couples dancing and just having fun being together. It was like we were all in this different time when things seemed more whole and I just enjoyed relaxing in that moment. "Let's stay together" came on and after that we left. It was a good night.