waves.

Waves have been crashing in my life. They have been moving in and out. This spring quarter has been…different to say the least. I think I burned out a little last quarter, so when I started out this quarter I just wanted to play. My mind hasn’t been in school. Senioritis has definitely kicked in. I felt very out of it for the first three or four weeks and my heart wasn’t in a lot of things. But I enjoyed the time that I got to spend with people. I felt friendships definitely deepen. Then fourth week I was in it and needed to really crack down and get some work done. Then fifth week and sixth week were pretty crazy with midterms. And now it is seventh week. It is seventh week of the last quarter of my senior year. 0_0. It kind of blows my mind. At the end of last quarter I finally let go and just started to really process stuff. But this quarter I just have these roller coaster of emotions, up and down and up and back down again. I had an odd dream a couple nights ago. It was like in the book ‘the time-travellers wife’ in that I was a time-traveller and traveled back to when she was still alive. I finally shared it today and I felt a lot better. But these waves. I don’t know what to do about these waves.

“

Really, let it all out, and let it go. Someone told me once that pain/sorrow/grief/distress comes in waves, and you must ride those waves or else you will drown. " ~someone whom I love.

I hope I don't drown.