Thursday, November 4, 2010

hello!

This week so far...
Monday- Power outage at work.
-stood around for like 1.5 hrs before they let us leave till 1pm.
-played rockband at a coworkers apt. (SUPER FUN!!!)
-power came back on at 1230 but we weren't let back in till 1pm...back to work.
-kind of forgot to eat lunch...and didnt really eat anything till dinner.
-it was a wierrrrd day
-I took the metro and was afraid the rail lost power...thankfully it didnt

Tuesday-Election Day!!
-beautiful sunrise
-learned more about my officemate
-went with my parents to go to the polling place to vote.
-my first time at a polling place though my 2nd time voting
-I felt super patriotic
-purchased stuff for operation christmas child
-had a nice phone chat with joyce chiangstaaaar!!


Wednesday- Small group
-called feesh to match up flight schedules, so good to hear her voice. :)
-we finally decided what to do for small groups ( a book by Tim Keller...then experiencing God?)
-forgot my cell phone at small group -____- and had to drive back to get it

Thursday- Long day
-worked extra like I usually do, to make up hours and so I can leave earlier on fridays
-super exhausted = easily frustrated
-finally finished my program with a lot of help from one of my coworkers
(so proud of the finished product!...but I still have to test it to see if it works)
-joked with my coworkers about a man in a suit and learned about yucca chips from trader joe's
-found out I was going to go to a Lakers game!! :D
-booked my flight to nor-cal!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D :) :D :)

and... Happy Birthday to Joyce Chiang!!! :) You are so awesome! I'm sad that we aren't there to celebrate the night away but we shall still celebrate all the same when we arrive in Dec. I'm so blessed to know you and be friends with you. I miss you!! <3
(blurry pic, i know. But this is from freshman year! wowza~)


Friday, October 22, 2010

the past...

But this is what the past is for! Every experience God gives us, every person He puts in our lives is the perfect preparation for the future that only He can see.
Corrie Ten Boom

Sunday, October 17, 2010

days....

As the days draw closer, I can't help but think more and more of you. I miss you still.

Friday, October 1, 2010

O, Grandfather of mine.

Hm, so it has been a while since I've posted last and there are so many things that I have to share. About work, life, public transportation, crappy traffic with smiling people and living at home. But today I'm going to share about my grandfather. My well-meaning, sweet, mischievous, loving, follower of God and long-living grandfather.

Some of you have met him before or heard of me mention him in a passing story. He is my mother's father and my last living grandparent. He cares very much for each of his grandchildren, of which there are 9. Ever since I graduated high school and entered college he has been especially concerned with my finding a husband. To him, it is of the utmost importance. He'd always talk about it whenever he would come over. Thankfully, my mother, after an hour or so of him talking to me and me politely listening, would tell him that it was enough. Throughout college, I would just tell him that I'd like to find my own, to halt the conversation. My freshman year, he became friends with this nice family at church and they had a son who happen to go to UCI who was an engineer. He told me his name (which I instantly forgot) and told me to go find him (which I did not do). His reasoning behind his matchmaking is that I am a nice girl and he wants me to meet a nice boy and that nice boys and nice girls are very rare these days. To be honest, I took most of it with humor. I'd retell the stories to my friends about my funny matchmaking grandfather. A classic example, that some of you might know, is when he was praying in the car on the way to my cousin's wedding reception. (This was all spoken in chinese)
"Dear Lord, Thank you so much for Tiffany (my cousin) and her now husband Thomas... Lord, please bless Christina (my older sister) and her soon to be husband, Rick may you bless their marriage. Lord, please bless Olivia (my younger sister) and her boyfriend, Kendrick, I'm so glad that they have been doing well. Lord...where is Jessica's boyfriend? We don't know, but you do..."( The '...' are when he's talking but I don't remember exactly what he said.)

Anywhoooo, the reason why I bring this up now is because the last time I went to go hang out with him at the beginning of this summer, we ate lunch and played mini-golf. At the end of the hangout time, he mentioned this guy. It took me till the middle of the conversation to figure out that this was someone he wanted to set me up with. I immediately freaked. Old people are persistent. Even though I kept saying I would like to find my own, he kept saying well you can just be friends right? Recently he went to go to Taiwan for a trip and then gave me a call. He wants me to visit him because he has important matters to discuss with me. I kept asking him what he wanted to talk about and he'd chuckle and say the most important heart matter! A chance that I can't miss out on. I'm thinking "Oh no, after all these years of putting it off he's finally going to have me meet one of the guys." Turns out when he went to Taiwan he met up with the guy and his family and got their consent to give me his email. This guy is currently serving in the Taiwan Army and he's a doctor. (The doctor part was one that he kept repeating a couple times "He's a doctor!") That and he and his parents both love God very much. My grandfather wants me to visit him so he can talk about this more and give me the guys email and show me pictures of him. I know he loves me very much and just wants the best for me but when he said " well you aren't getting married to him yet, just friends!" I was thinking "Um...yet??" almost as if he expects me to marry this guy. *sigh* It's becoming less and less funny. Though the part of me looking in on this finds most of the phone conversation hilarious.

Monday, September 6, 2010

first day of work

Tomorrow is my first day of work and the feelings going through my head are many. I feel like a first grader about to embark on my first day of elementary school. I'm packing my new looking bag with the important stuff I need to bring for my first day orientation. Packing my sandwich for lunch in my spiderman lunchbox (not the most grown up thing really, but oh well) and snacks in case I get hungry during the day (breakfast is at 530am so I'm bound to get hungry at 8am). Laying out my work clothes for the next day. Nervously wondering if I will make friends. Wondering what lunch is like. Dreading the traffic. Hoping I won't fall asleep on my first day because I'm exhausted from waking up so early. Wondering if I will know how to do things on my first day. Hoping I will get a long with my office mate and manager. aish. Well enough wondering for one night, and time to see how it will go. Good night, world. In the morning my working adult life begins.

Friday, August 6, 2010

dearest darling disappointments

Two past disappointing discoveries that I've made or were made known to me:

(ONE) That John Mayer was a pothead.
I think I was disappointed because I thought he was so musically and lyrically talented ( I still do) and I could listen to his albums over and over and over again (though not the newest one for some odd reason). To hear that his inspiration came while high, made me sad for some reason. Almost as if it wasn't his own. But I still like his music a lot and I still love listening to it.

(TWO) That some of the most beautiful sunsets we see today are because of all the chemicals we dump into the air -_-
I love love love sunsets. I especially love watching them. I remember throughout junior high and high school after coming home from school, I would relax and eat some snacks and then try to do some homework then I would go outside and watch the sun set behind the house across the street. I loved that time of day,(I'm also a pretty big romantic, as in, not the lovey dovey kind but the daydreaming kind) so when I was told that it was because of chemicals that were being dumped in the air (and I'm suspecting not very good chemicals) it made me sad because I realized that people that lived long before us never saw it and it made me feel as if it wasn't part of God's creation. Though, now that I think about it, only God could turn something crappy and something bad that we did into something so beautiful that we can enjoy.

Monday, July 19, 2010

Smile :)


I love how improvEverywhere does random spontaneous stuff that just makes every day unique and try to brighten peoples day. I wish there were more stuff like this.

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Graduation.


Even though graduation happened a while ago I just wanted to post a thank you post. Thank you, Lord, for getting me through these past 4 years of college and blessing me with such great friends and family. Really, I wouldn't have made it through college without you guys. :) I love you guys! <3





Monday, June 14, 2010

everything.

Everything is different starting today. The things that used to be constant, will not be. Hello, summer, don't make me cry. I think I needed things to look forward to, so I wouldn't be as sad about all the people that are moving that I will miss. Everything is changing, starting today.

I miss you already, joyce chiang.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

John Wooden.

Coach John Wooden (Oct 14, 1910 - June 4, 2010)
"That’s what John Wooden did in his 99 years. He infused life with meaning. He found essence in the haze. He won a lot of basketball games without ever thinking that winning was the point. And he gave away a lot of love."-Joe Posnanski (SI)

what legacy to we aspire to leave behind? what life do we want to live?

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

change.

(photo by: nass)
Am I scared of change because it is something different? Or am I just scared of not being sure of what I am sure of now?

Saturday, June 5, 2010

Pictures of You - The Cure



This song has kinda been stuck in my head and these kids are so darn cute and so good at singing.

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Looking forward...Looking back

It is now 10th week! 0_0 wow. I think in this moment, there are some things that I'm looking forward to and many things that I will miss as I look back on my years here at UCI.

I don't think I could list everything and everyone that I will miss...it would take daysndaysndays.
but some stuff I will miss:
-random hangouts with friends
-the people that I've grown so close too (we better stay in touch!!)
-the good food out here in irvine/costamesa/newport..etcetc.
-my internship at Broadcom
-the chillness, the people, the campus and broadcom perks.
-walking languidly on campus
-my small group
I think as time goes on and I move back there are going to be way, way more things.
(its not that it was a sad time in the past, but I'm going to miss these things)

(photo by: supernab and bunnyrel)


And there are some things that I'm looking forward to that make me smile and make me excited:
-having small group with alice yoon and kat ko
-esther.jo is moving back to LA!!
-future hangouts with people that I've gotten closer to
-and my new work...and meeting new people

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Happy Birthday, Daddy! :)



Soo this past Sunday we celebrated my Dad's birthday even though his actual birthday is on the 25th. It was nice to have the family all back together again. :) Here's to another year. Thanks for being you! I love you, Daddy!

Friday, May 21, 2010

Seek to be inspired

Even though this was at the Harvard 2008 graduation. It still makes me tear up and still inspires me. I hope you guys can enjoy it as well.

J.K. Rowling Speaks at Harvard Commencement from Harvard Magazine on Vimeo.


Text as delivered follows.
Copyright of JK Rowling, June 2008

President Faust, members of the Harvard Corporation and the Board of Overseers, members of the faculty, proud parents, and, above all, graduates.

The first thing I would like to say is ‘thank you.’ Not only has Harvard given me an extraordinary honour, but the weeks of fear and nausea I have endured at the thought of giving this commencement address have made me lose weight. A win-win situation! Now all I have to do is take deep breaths, squint at the red banners and convince myself that I am at the world’s largest Gryffindor reunion.

Delivering a commencement address is a great responsibility; or so I thought until I cast my mind back to my own graduation. The commencement speaker that day was the distinguished British philosopher Baroness Mary Warnock. Reflecting on her speech has helped me enormously in writing this one, because it turns out that I can’t remember a single word she said. This liberating discovery enables me to proceed without any fear that I might inadvertently influence you to abandon promising careers in business, the law or politics for the giddy delights of becoming a gay wizard.

You see? If all you remember in years to come is the ‘gay wizard’ joke, I’ve come out ahead of Baroness Mary Warnock. Achievable goals: the first step to self improvement.

Actually, I have wracked my mind and heart for what I ought to say to you today. I have asked myself what I wish I had known at my own graduation, and what important lessons I have learned in the 21 years that have expired between that day and this.

I have come up with two answers. On this wonderful day when we are gathered together to celebrate your academic success, I have decided to talk to you about the benefits of failure. And as you stand on the threshold of what is sometimes called ‘real life’, I want to extol the crucial importance of imagination.

These may seem quixotic or paradoxical choices, but please bear with me.

Looking back at the 21-year-old that I was at graduation, is a slightly uncomfortable experience for the 42-year-old that she has become. Half my lifetime ago, I was striking an uneasy balance between the ambition I had for myself, and what those closest to me expected of me.

I was convinced that the only thing I wanted to do, ever, was to write novels. However, my parents, both of whom came from impoverished backgrounds and neither of whom had been to college, took the view that my overactive imagination was an amusing personal quirk that would never pay a mortgage, or secure a pension. I know that the irony strikes with the force of a cartoon anvil, now.

So they hoped that I would take a vocational degree; I wanted to study English Literature. A compromise was reached that in retrospect satisfied nobody, and I went up to study Modern Languages. Hardly had my parents’ car rounded the corner at the end of the road than I ditched German and scuttled off down the Classics corridor.

I cannot remember telling my parents that I was studying Classics; they might well have found out for the first time on graduation day. Of all the subjects on this planet, I think they would have been hard put to name one less useful than Greek mythology when it came to securing the keys to an executive bathroom.

I would like to make it clear, in parenthesis, that I do not blame my parents for their point of view. There is an expiry date on blaming your parents for steering you in the wrong direction; the moment you are old enough to take the wheel, responsibility lies with you. What is more, I cannot criticise my parents for hoping that I would never experience poverty. They had been poor themselves, and I have since been poor, and I quite agree with them that it is not an ennobling experience. Poverty entails fear, and stress, and sometimes depression; it means a thousand petty humiliations and hardships. Climbing out of poverty by your own efforts, that is indeed something on which to pride yourself, but poverty itself is romanticised only by fools.

What I feared most for myself at your age was not poverty, but failure.

At your age, in spite of a distinct lack of motivation at university, where I had spent far too long in the coffee bar writing stories, and far too little time at lectures, I had a knack for passing examinations, and that, for years, had been the measure of success in my life and that of my peers.

I am not dull enough to suppose that because you are young, gifted and well-educated, you have never known hardship or heartbreak. Talent and intelligence never yet inoculated anyone against the caprice of the Fates, and I do not for a moment suppose that everyone here has enjoyed an existence of unruffled privilege and contentment.

However, the fact that you are graduating from Harvard suggests that you are not very well-acquainted with failure. You might be driven by a fear of failure quite as much as a desire for success. Indeed, your conception of failure might not be too far from the average person’s idea of success, so high have you already flown.

Ultimately, we all have to decide for ourselves what constitutes failure, but the world is quite eager to give you a set of criteria if you let it. So I think it fair to say that by any conventional measure, a mere seven years after my graduation day, I had failed on an epic scale. An exceptionally short-lived marriage had imploded, and I was jobless, a lone parent, and as poor as it is possible to be in modern Britain, without being homeless. The fears that my parents had had for me, and that I had had for myself, had both come to pass, and by every usual standard, I was the biggest failure I knew.

Now, I am not going to stand here and tell you that failure is fun. That period of my life was a dark one, and I had no idea that there was going to be what the press has since represented as a kind of fairy tale resolution. I had no idea then how far the tunnel extended, and for a long time, any light at the end of it was a hope rather than a reality.

So why do I talk about the benefits of failure? Simply because failure meant a stripping away of the inessential. I stopped pretending to myself that I was anything other than what I was, and began to direct all my energy into finishing the only work that mattered to me. Had I really succeeded at anything else, I might never have found the determination to succeed in the one arena I believed I truly belonged. I was set free, because my greatest fear had been realised, and I was still alive, and I still had a daughter whom I adored, and I had an old typewriter and a big idea. And so rock bottom became the solid foundation on which I rebuilt my life.

You might never fail on the scale I did, but some failure in life is inevitable. It is impossible to live without failing at something, unless you live so cautiously that you might as well not have lived at all – in which case, you fail by default.

Failure gave me an inner security that I had never attained by passing examinations. Failure taught me things about myself that I could have learned no other way. I discovered that I had a strong will, and more discipline than I had suspected; I also found out that I had friends whose value was truly above the price of rubies.

The knowledge that you have emerged wiser and stronger from setbacks means that you are, ever after, secure in your ability to survive. You will never truly know yourself, or the strength of your relationships, until both have been tested by adversity. Such knowledge is a true gift, for all that it is painfully won, and it has been worth more than any qualification I ever earned.

So given a Time Turner, I would tell my 21-year-old self that personal happiness lies in knowing that life is not a check-list of acquisition or achievement. Your qualifications, your CV, are not your life, though you will meet many people of my age and older who confuse the two. Life is difficult, and complicated, and beyond anyone’s total control, and the humility to know that will enable you to survive its vicissitudes.

Now you might think that I chose my second theme, the importance of imagination, because of the part it played in rebuilding my life, but that is not wholly so. Though I personally will defend the value of bedtime stories to my last gasp, I have learned to value imagination in a much broader sense. Imagination is not only the uniquely human capacity to envision that which is not, and therefore the fount of all invention and innovation. In its arguably most transformative and revelatory capacity, it is the power that enables us to empathise with humans whose experiences we have never shared.

One of the greatest formative experiences of my life preceded Harry Potter, though it informed much of what I subsequently wrote in those books. This revelation came in the form of one of my earliest day jobs. Though I was sloping off to write stories during my lunch hours, I paid the rent in my early 20s by working at the African research department at Amnesty International’s headquarters in London.

There in my little office I read hastily scribbled letters smuggled out of totalitarian regimes by men and women who were risking imprisonment to inform the outside world of what was happening to them. I saw photographs of those who had disappeared without trace, sent to Amnesty by their desperate families and friends. I read the testimony of torture victims and saw pictures of their injuries. I opened handwritten, eye-witness accounts of summary trials and executions, of kidnappings and rapes.

Many of my co-workers were ex-political prisoners, people who had been displaced from their homes, or fled into exile, because they had the temerity to speak against their governments. Visitors to our offices included those who had come to give information, or to try and find out what had happened to those they had left behind.

I shall never forget the African torture victim, a young man no older than I was at the time, who had become mentally ill after all he had endured in his homeland. He trembled uncontrollably as he spoke into a video camera about the brutality inflicted upon him. He was a foot taller than I was, and seemed as fragile as a child. I was given the job of escorting him back to the Underground Station afterwards, and this man whose life had been shattered by cruelty took my hand with exquisite courtesy, and wished me future happiness.

And as long as I live I shall remember walking along an empty corridor and suddenly hearing, from behind a closed door, a scream of pain and horror such as I have never heard since. The door opened, and the researcher poked out her head and told me to run and make a hot drink for the young man sitting with her. She had just had to give him the news that in retaliation for his own outspokenness against his country’s regime, his mother had been seized and executed.

Every day of my working week in my early 20s I was reminded how incredibly fortunate I was, to live in a country with a democratically elected government, where legal representation and a public trial were the rights of everyone.

Every day, I saw more evidence about the evils humankind will inflict on their fellow humans, to gain or maintain power. I began to have nightmares, literal nightmares, about some of the things I saw, heard, and read.

And yet I also learned more about human goodness at Amnesty International than I had ever known before.

Amnesty mobilises thousands of people who have never been tortured or imprisoned for their beliefs to act on behalf of those who have. The power of human empathy, leading to collective action, saves lives, and frees prisoners. Ordinary people, whose personal well-being and security are assured, join together in huge numbers to save people they do not know, and will never meet. My small participation in that process was one of the most humbling and inspiring experiences of my life.

Unlike any other creature on this planet, humans can learn and understand, without having experienced. They can think themselves into other people’s places.

Of course, this is a power, like my brand of fictional magic, that is morally neutral. One might use such an ability to manipulate, or control, just as much as to understand or sympathise.

And many prefer not to exercise their imaginations at all. They choose to remain comfortably within the bounds of their own experience, never troubling to wonder how it would feel to have been born other than they are. They can refuse to hear screams or to peer inside cages; they can close their minds and hearts to any suffering that does not touch them personally; they can refuse to know.

I might be tempted to envy people who can live that way, except that I do not think they have any fewer nightmares than I do. Choosing to live in narrow spaces leads to a form of mental agoraphobia, and that brings its own terrors. I think the wilfully unimaginative see more monsters. They are often more afraid.

What is more, those who choose not to empathise enable real monsters. For without ever committing an act of outright evil ourselves, we collude with it, through our own apathy.

One of the many things I learned at the end of that Classics corridor down which I ventured at the age of 18, in search of something I could not then define, was this, written by the Greek author Plutarch: What we achieve inwardly will change outer reality.

That is an astonishing statement and yet proven a thousand times every day of our lives. It expresses, in part, our inescapable connection with the outside world, the fact that we touch other people’s lives simply by existing.

But how much more are you, Harvard graduates of 2008, likely to touch other people’s lives? Your intelligence, your capacity for hard work, the education you have earned and received, give you unique status, and unique responsibilities. Even your nationality sets you apart. The great majority of you belong to the world’s only remaining superpower. The way you vote, the way you live, the way you protest, the pressure you bring to bear on your government, has an impact way beyond your borders. That is your privilege, and your burden.

If you choose to use your status and influence to raise your voice on behalf of those who have no voice; if you choose to identify not only with the powerful, but with the powerless; if you retain the ability to imagine yourself into the lives of those who do not have your advantages, then it will not only be your proud families who celebrate your existence, but thousands and millions of people whose reality you have helped change. We do not need magic to change the world, we carry all the power we need inside ourselves already: we have the power to imagine better.

I am nearly finished. I have one last hope for you, which is something that I already had at 21. The friends with whom I sat on graduation day have been my friends for life. They are my children’s godparents, the people to whom I’ve been able to turn in times of trouble, people who have been kind enough not to sue me when I took their names for Death Eaters. At our graduation we were bound by enormous affection, by our shared experience of a time that could never come again, and, of course, by the knowledge that we held certain photographic evidence that would be exceptionally valuable if any of us ran for Prime Minister.

So today, I wish you nothing better than similar friendships. And tomorrow, I hope that even if you remember not a single word of mine, you remember those of Seneca, another of those old Romans I met when I fled down the Classics corridor, in retreat from career ladders, in search of ancient wisdom:
As is a tale, so is life: not how long it is, but how good it is, is what matters.
I wish you all very good lives.
Thank you very much.

Monday, May 17, 2010

quiet moments.

(photo by: TheNixer)

I think it is the spaces between words,
the stillness between moments,
the silence between friends
of being content in the silence.
Those are the rare moments
that I cherish.
It's a quiet understanding
that speaks what is hard to put into words.

Thursday, May 13, 2010

looking back.

(photo by: phillip klinger)
I've been reading over old blog posts. (like all 10 of them and some on another blog that I started earlier) and it's been interesting how words spoken from the trials of my past can be insightful to my trials today.

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

waves.

Waves have been crashing in my life. They have been moving in and out. This spring quarter has been…different to say the least. I think I burned out a little last quarter, so when I started out this quarter I just wanted to play. My mind hasn’t been in school. Senioritis has definitely kicked in. I felt very out of it for the first three or four weeks and my heart wasn’t in a lot of things. But I enjoyed the time that I got to spend with people. I felt friendships definitely deepen. Then fourth week I was in it and needed to really crack down and get some work done. Then fifth week and sixth week were pretty crazy with midterms. And now it is seventh week. It is seventh week of the last quarter of my senior year. 0_0. It kind of blows my mind. At the end of last quarter I finally let go and just started to really process stuff. But this quarter I just have these roller coaster of emotions, up and down and up and back down again. I had an odd dream a couple nights ago. It was like in the book ‘the time-travellers wife’ in that I was a time-traveller and traveled back to when she was still alive. I finally shared it today and I felt a lot better. But these waves. I don’t know what to do about these waves.

Really, let it all out, and let it go. Someone told me once that pain/sorrow/grief/distress comes in waves, and you must ride those waves or else you will drown. " ~someone whom I love.

I hope I don't drown.

Friday, April 23, 2010

Three days of New Orleans

So the three days were super packed.
Saturday:
Woke up at 430am to get to the airport by 6am. mine eyes were like -_- while i was getting ready
Had a layover in Houston.
heres us at the Houston airport rushing ALLLLL the way across to get to our connecting cause the airport is freakin' huge.

We arrived in New Orleans in the late afternoon and get to the hotel, Quality Inn & Suites on O' Keefe. This place was nice. Separated bedrooms. Continental Breakfast. And in walking distance of the French Quarter and the Wedding.

This is when my mom tells me that we are going to the rehearsal dinner. UM. I only brought one set of nice clothes for the wedding.
So I end up wearing a cardigan over my t-shirt and jeans. The little kid their (the grooms kid brother) was dressed nicer than I was. Sad. But the food was suuuuper fancy. and it turns out everyone dressed wayyy formal.
(this was the restaurant it was called August and was owned by chef John Besh)
This was the food. Okay so we had stuff like foi gras, roasted duck, a fancy salad with candied pecans(yum!). oh and ravioli that was stuffed with expensive meat.

Afterwards we went to go check out Bourbon St. which is basically like mardi gras in New Orleans without the floats. So it was pretty hectic. But it was fun to see how the city was at night.
Yes, we got mardi gras beads. No, we did not flash anyone. Ew. I think I would be traumatized if my mom flashed anyone. My mom didn't understand that they wanted her to flash them. She got super excited that they were throwing necklaces and that everyone in the street wanted them. And you can see my not so formal outfit that I wore for the rehearsal dinner.

Sunday:
We went to bed pretty late, so it was super tough waking up the next morning. But mother insisted since we got continental breakfast at the hotel, which was pretty sweet. They had a lot of food. Everything from sausage to grits to cereal to waffles. YUM!
This is us at breakfast. Oh I forgot to mention they had coffee, tea and OJ and apple juice. It was quite the spread.
But it gave us energy cause we were going to go explore the French Quarter that day. Mostly just hit places like Jackson square and all the surrounding shops and of course, cafe du monde for the beneigts.
This is Jackson Square. It's famous for the statue of President Andrew Jackson and the Cathedral behind it is pretty famous as well. This was right next to Cafe duMonde.
It was pretty crowded that day because there was a triathlon going on and Cafe duMonde was right near the finish line.
It was suuuuper crowded here. It was really hard to find a table but we eventually did and ordered our beneigts.
Mission Accomplished. YUMMMMM!! These were so good!! Little fried pieces of dough literally drowning in powdered sugar.

After Cafe du Monde, we shopped around the gift shops n stuff. The feel of the city is really chill. We walked around enjoying street performers, and street art. Then we had to rush back to get changed for the wedding. After almost being late we finally arrived.
This was where the main wedding ceremony was held. It used to be a bank and was located in the French Quarter. It was a gorgeous place though.


Here are the bride and groom lighting the unity candle. It was a beautiful, albeit short, ceremony.

Then they had an open bar and hor d'oeuvre's before the wedding banquet. Dude, the hor d'oeuvre's were so good! They had one that was a slice of marinated steak, one that was this fried crab cake and crawfish beignets. Then the dinner was also super fancy. Funniest speeches ever! by both the best man and my Uncle (father of the bride).

Excerpt from best man's speech:
"I want you two to put your hands together on the table. No, Jacob put your hand on top of Renee's. And stare into each other's eyes. Jacob, enjoy this moment because it's the last time you're going to have the upper hand in this relationship."

Excerpt from my uncle's speech:
(at the very end)
"...now be fruitful! and bear lots of childrennn!!!!"

oh maaaan.

Here's the happy couple at their sweetheart table.


Here's my cousin,Renee, and her husband,Jacob, at the cake cutting!



The food was delish. The salad was alright. The appetizer was this potato gnochi that was amazing! I've never had gnochi that tasted that good before. The main course was this medium rare steak that was sooo tender and juicy. And the wedding cake was lemon? I think.

After that we went back and slept cause we were so tired.

Monday:

We had small continental breakfast since we were saving our stomachs for lunch. For lunch we wanted to have some real Louisiana eatin'!! So we asked the hotel concierge and he recommended this seafood restaurant. Man alive, it was so bueno!!

Top Left: Gumbo (I didnt like it that much)
Top Right: Po-boy sandwich (basically sandwich with fried fish in it) AUTHENTIC!
Bottom Left: Seafood platter
Bottom Right: Barbeque shrimp platter

Dude the shrimp there was huge. I don't really eat shrimp, myself, but my mom and sister said it was really tasty.


The po-boy sandwich I ordered was freaking huge. And it was so tasty!



After lunch we rushed to go look at the mississippi river because we've never been before.

It was nice out on the water since it was pretty hot in New Orleans when we visited.

After that we rushed back to drop of the rental car and flew back home.
It was definitely a fun-filled and food-filled trip. In conclusion, I had a great time! :)








Friday, April 16, 2010

off to New Orleans



Tomorrow morning I leave with my mother, sister and brother-in-law for New Orleans! And I can't wait to try New Orleans beignets' (pronounced benyays) since I saw it in the movie, the princess and the frog. Fried dough with powdered sugar. yum! I'm also excited to try lots of other foods. oh! and excited to see my cousin Renee get married! :D

Thursday, April 15, 2010

this week

This quarter... I really need to get my work done on time! less procrastination.
This week has been interesting...I've been pretty out of it.
It was just one of those weeks where I've been feeling lonely for really no reason at all. *sigh*

photo by: felipe jedyn

Monday, April 5, 2010

Earthquake Map


Does this look crazy to anyone else?? It looks like the earthquakes are creeping up California from Mexico. Anyways, I hope that those in Mexico that are affected by the quake are okay. I wonder how it is in SD. It looks like there are crazy earthquakes around that one area.


Tuesday, March 16, 2010

open window

(photo taken by: jaimeepage)

I opened my window today to air out the room and sat on my bed to relax after my two finals today. As I sat there, I could hear everything going on outside. Slowly, I could hear light keys being played and then all of a sudden played with gusto. It was beautiful piano music that totally reflected the mood I was in. And I just sat there kinda soaking it all in. It was very peaceful. If I hadn't opened the window, I might've missed it. Kinda reminds me to take a chance on things, cause you never know the unexpected surprises awaiting there behind it.

Still waiting...

Saturday, March 13, 2010

People from my past who I want to acknowledge #1

I was thinking about random people from my childhood and who were around when I was growing up but lost touch with cause I moved around a lot. I guess I wanted to do a series (though not in any specific order and they probably won't be one right after another) of people in my life who made a difference, but maybe never knew it.

The first person I was thinking of was Ms. Mckenzie. She showed up in random parts of my elementary school years.

I first met her when I was in 2nd grade. She was the yard attendant that kept an eye on the children during recess. She was this extremely tall (well at least tall compared to my 2nd grade self), auburn-haired woman who had a huge smile. Since my family lived out of district, we got moved around a lot within the school district. This was my second elementary school, PCY (Paradise Canyon Elementary School). Since we moved around a lot I didn't have any friends when I went there. I eventually met some people in my class like Teresa Tseng and others.

Anyways, during recess I used to talk to Ms. Mckenzie all the time, since I didn't really hang out with the other kids. I'd always get so excited. She was one of my first friends in elementary school. I wonder what she thought of our conversations. hahaha Later on, I started to hang out with this girl, Lindsay Deutsch and I didn't talk to Ms. Mckenzie as much anymore.

Then in 5th grade...I think... , by this time I was at PCR (Palm Crest Elementary), I remember walking down to playground and I see this extremely tall woman with long auburn hair and I got so excited! It was Ms. Mckenzie!! I ran as fast as I could down to the playground and hugged her. She had this huge smile on her face and she said "wow! you almost knocked me down." All I could do was look up at her and smile at her. I guess 5th grade was kinda tough too, friends wise. But it was good to run down at recess, spot her and dash over and give her a big ol' hug. I wonder where she is now. If I ever met her again, I'd probably do the same. Dash over and give her a big hug. Though now I'm wayyy taller than when I was in elementary school (I got my growth spurt in the 9th grade). Thanks for being my friend, Ms. Mckenzie. :)

Sunday, March 7, 2010

寶貝

My heart is restless because He called my name today.
What did you want to bring to my attention?

"貝貝".

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

on the phone with my parents

I cry whenever I'm on the phone with my parents. Maybe cause I miss them so much. Sometimes they know, sometimes they don't. They have been my support through these troubles. They have more faith in God that I do and I can always feel their love through the phone. They also always try to cheer me up.

Today, I told them about how I was tired and stressed. My mom said to buy something that I like to eat to cheer myself up. That's one of the easiest ways. Then my dad chimed in and said "A fat girl is better than a dead girl" Oh father. I love my parents.

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Dear Broccoli,

I have been thinking about you all week. Thanks for finally having dinner with me :)

love,
Jessica

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

To Young People

"Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings. And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast. To him be the power for ever and ever. Amen." -1Peter 5:6-11

Forgive me, Lord, for not trusting you. I hope I can cling to you and not forget.

Friday, January 1, 2010

2010. May you be better than the last. :)

Well, I just counted down. Cheered with champagne with my family. and now im watching part2 of Dick Clarke's New Years which doesn't include Dick Clark or Ryan Seacrest. But its fun.
2009. What a year! It has been probably one of the crappiest (circumstances wise). The beginning of the year I was stressed out with school and other life circumstances. Summer was nice though. Then this fall quarter it was just one thing after another. It was like getting punched in the face in quick succession. But even though all this crap happened, I've learned what it means to give it to God...to fully trust him. I'm not saying I've got it down and life is chipper, but it's finally clicked. God has blessed me abundantly and I've come to see that. The friendships that I've made have grown more this year and I hope that they are able to continue to grow. I've been blessed with loving family and friends. Hm, perhaps its too late to be writing this, my thoughts are all jumbled.

Here's to 2010. I hope that it is better than the last.