He is here.

I recently purchased a book about the lives of God-seekers throughout time. And one of the ones they profiled was one of my favorite authors, Madeline L' Engle. (She has written this book called A Wrinkle in Time. Great book, you should check it out if you have time. It's a fictional childrens novel) In the God-seekers book they have quotes by the people they profile. This one quote by Madeline L' Engle, I think really relates to this point that I've come to. This point that has taken the trials of this whole quarter to learn and realize. I think I'm okay with where things are at now. I'm okay because I can finally give it to God, it's in His hands and I've let go of it. The tears, the worry, the stress have led me to realize He is there always. Crying with me, holding me and comforting me. Sometimes I can't feel Him or hear what He wants to speak to me, but He is here. With me.

"It is when things go wrong, when the good things do not happen, when our prayers seem to have been lost, that God is most present. We do not need the sheltering wings when things go smoothly. We are closest to God in the darkness, stumbling along blindly"
-Madeline L' Engle Two-Part Invention