The Little Prince and the Fox

"That was how the little prince tamed the fox. And when the time to leave was near:
'Ah!' the fox said.'I shall weep'
'It's your own fault' the little prince said. 'I never wanted to do you any harm, but you insisted that I tame you...'
'Yes, of course' the fox said.
'But you're going to weep!' said the little prince.
'Yes, of course,' the fox said.
'Then you get nothing out of it?'
'I get something' the fox said, 'because of the color of the wheat.' Then he added ,'Go look at the roses again. You'll understand that yours is the only rose in all the world. Then come back to say good-bye, and I'll make you the gift of a secret.'
....

And he went back to the fox.
'Good-bye', he said.
'Good-bye', said the fox. 'Here is my secret. It's quite simple: One sees clearly only with the heart. Anything essential is invisible to the eyes."
'Anything Essential is invisible to the eyes' the little prince repeated, in order to remember.
'It's the time you spent on your rose that makes your rose so important' "

-The Little Prince (pg 61-64)

There is only one thing that I want to post today.

A good meal.

It was nice to have a good, filling meal with friends that I don't get a chance to catch up with very often. I enjoy listening to other people talk about their lives. Something that goes beyond the everyday, I suppose. :)


I miss home.

Strongest.

I have come to realize that I am at my strongest when I am at my weakest point. It is when I can no longer do anything to help myself and I am still lacking. This is when I see and I look to God and the loving family, friends and even loving strangers he has surrounded me by that help me back on my feet. And I can stand stronger now, more than when I was just trying to stand on my own.

God is good.

Let me just say that today has been a crazy day. Tiffany, Joyce and I were going to visit UCLA. I volunteered to drive. We were going to take the 405-N all the way up to LA. As we are driving, we just chatted about dreams and whatnot and I moved the car to the carpool lane cause we had more than 1 person. Everything was going fine until the car started making this random bumping noise then I think something hit the bottom of the car. Which suprised us, but nothing really happened until about a minute later there was a bang and the side of the car flew up. That freaked the heck out of me. So I'm switching lanes to get to the shoulder and praise God that no accidents happened. After getting out of the car we saw that the tire was stripped and had blown up and then there were all these wires hanging out cause the side of the car ripped off and rolled up. The car was also dripping some random liquid. I was thinking "oh crap". Joyce and Tiff were trying to make sure that I was okay. I was mostly in a state of shock, I suppose. Joyce started calling AAA to see if we could get towed and I was calling my dad to ask him what to do. All of the sudden, Tiff said,"Uh, this car pulled up behind us." All of us turn around and there was this man in a small truck-ish looking thing and wearing a safety vest. I think his name was A. Sola. He was like "I help you. I'm from Metro. I change the tire for you. It's free". He then handed me this brochure that explained what he was doing. I guess I should thank the taxpayers and voters for passing Prop C. So this Metro man to changed the flat on my car and then used wires to hold up the cables. There wasn't really anything that could be done about the fender. Then while the Metro man was finishing up this Mercedes-Benz pulls in front of my car. This asian man, whose name is Peter, started talking to us and asking if we were okay. The Metro man assumed this guy was my dad and started pointing out the damage and showing him what he did. Peter, or Uncle Peter as we like to call him, asked us if we paid the man yet for helping us and started pulling money out of his wallet. All three of us were like no, no, no, its free! its free! Tiff even pointed to the brochure (though on the spanish side). Uncle Peter said that he would follow us off the freeway and take us to a place to get the tire fixed. So we drive super slow and exit at the first exit. He took us to this car shop that does tire work. He talked to the manager there and made sure that we were squared away to get help. It turns out that he was on his way to pick up his son from somewhere but he stopped to help us. He asked if we had enough money to pay for the fixed tire and we assured him that we were okay. I honestly think if we didn't have enough money, he would've paid. Remember, this guy is a total stranger. Anyways, we got the tire fixed and got an estimate on how much it would take to fix the body (1500 dollas for the body) and then headed back to Irvine. slowly. All in all it was a crazy experience, but I know that throughout the whole thing, God was watching over us and taking care of us. All the people who showed up to help weren't people that we specifically called. Metro man and Uncle Peter stopped by because they saw that we were in trouble. Joyce and Tiff were trying to make sure that I was okay and were super patient throughout the whole thing. The situation could've been a lot worse, but it wasn't. No one was hurt. I thank God for providing me with these good friends and the help. In conclusion, God is good.
(PS. thanks for lunch. you guys didn't have to. but it touched my heart. <3)

the great collapse.

I'm just scared that everything collapsing is God's will. I think I lack faith. I know God wants the best for me. But what if His best is the one thing I'm dreading?

let go. i cant. you need to. i know. im here. im scared. let go.

Great Park = Great fun

So I know I haven't written in a while. But I just wanted to put an entry in about when I went to the Great Park! It was pretty fun and random. We did practically everything there. We as in Lydia Kim, Joyce Ang and I. We played chess. Took a mini dance lesson. Danced the night away. Until our turn came for the Great Balloon. We went up 400ft. (i think?) The man in control of the balloon was dressed like a captain. I thought about how cool it would be to be captain of an airship. Too bad those are only anime. I wondered what would happen if the balloon carried me away and somehow my worries would be left behind. But all that happened was the balloon went back down. We were tired by that time so we just watched some other people dance. It was cute because it was families and couples dancing and just having fun being together. It was like we were all in this different time when things seemed more whole and I just enjoyed relaxing in that moment. "Let's stay together" came on and after that we left. It was a good night.